It's one of those days. Not the bad days or even a great day--though it has been pretty great. Today is one of the days I am more sure of myself. Now that the three day weekend has faded into oblivion--finally....I couldn't wait to get rid of it--and I find myself preoccupied with things other than just atypical schoolwork, I can be a little more introspective without letting my wild imagination take hold.
Important things to be noted about this recent introspection:
1) I do not need anyone in my life--at least not right now and, most likely, not anytime soon.
2) I enjoy quietude. It's much funner to watch people from afar in their natural habitats.
3) I have to be doing something. If I'm not I fall into this deeply depressive melancholy...and it's not pretty, nor is it becoming. I just need a purpose, even if it's only short term.
4) I like being happy--esp. when I'm happy with myself. I'm such a better person when I'm happy and I see possibilities instead of missed chances.
5) And this is a big one--all my fantasies about "him" are exactly that: fantasies. They'll probably never happen. Who even knows if the person I'm fantasizing about even exists anymore. Which of course also brings me back to 1) I do not need anyone in my life.
Ah the joys of self-actualization. I shall now skip around campus singing showtunes.......or not. No one really wants to see me skip.
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